Tuesday, January 30, 2007

Searching For The Truth


Sometimes I feel like everything that I have been taught in life about God is not enough. Like there is something more to God than just what I hear at Sunday school or at church. It's in times like these that God visits me and tells me things that other people would not understand. They wouldn't understand because each experience with God is unique and only God and that person will understand how it is really like.Today I searched for the truth and wisdom. I'll keep searching until the end of my days. Sure, I have certain things figured out, but knowing something is very different than believing in it. Have I really experienced the wonderful effects that God's love can bring? Or am I just living my life so that everyone around me can think that I'm a "good Christian?" Am I living for God or for people?Thoughts like these came to mind and I started wondering whether this was true. In certain areas of my life I saw that I did live for God but in other areas I wasn't doing such a good job at that. So I asked God for some advice. I asked God to guide me and show me the real truth. Show me how to live for Him and not always rely on people to tell me what to believe in. Sure, people can help me with their greater knowledge of God, but it is also important for me to see things for myself with God's help.So God showed this verse this morning:
Delight yourself in the LORD
and he will give you the desires of your heart.Commit your way to the LORD;
trust in him and he will do this:
Psalm 37:4-5
I knew that if I delighted myself in the Lord, that he would give me discernment and wisdom to live my life for Him and for Him only. He told me to trust in Him. He told me to trust that He was going to help me follow Him and Him only.
By all that He has done for me so far, trusting in him will be a very easy task. But the process won't be so easy. But He is above all things and He will help me through.
I love Jesus. His love is enough for me.

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

Bands That Shun The Label: "Christian Band"

In our society there are various individuals with various talents. Whether they are specialized in arts, music, or media, they each have their own views and their own values. Because of this difference in values, many times these talents are each separated into different categories. Music is not an exception. The two biggest music scenes are mainstream and Christian. Those who prefer mainstream music as a better tool for their everyday lives, usually do not listen to Christian music. Let us start by defining “Christian music”. Christian music is "music created by Christians and adapted for the Christian church." The definition is very self-explanatory. Artists, who wish to get signed by a Christian record label or are debuting in the Christian music scene, are to expect that they are only going to be performing in Christian events and churches. They would know that their albums would be released in Christian bookstores. However, those artists who are in the Christian music scene in order to evangelize aren’t going to expect many non-believers in their concerts. Simply because when it comes to Christian music, most non-believers cringe at the thought of it. Our society is quickly boycotting Christian artists, Christian music, or simply everything that has the word “Christian” in it. And some Christians have a sacrilegious attitude towards mainstream music. So we ask ourselves, “What about those artists who are Christians but wish to have nothing to do with the Christian music scene?” We find that today Christian artists are drawing away from the “Christian label” because of this reason. However, this is more frequent in rock bands. So what rock bands have been either shunning this title or have had problems with the Christian music scene?

One of the bands is Switchfoot. Founded in 1996 as “Chin Up”, this alternative rock band was enjoying their times of making music and surfing every morning at the beach. In 1997 they were contacted by Charlie Peacock, the founder of Re:think Records which is now a division of the famous Christian record label Sparrow Records. The guys were, as required, marketed in Christian realms only. However they never appreciated the term “Christian band.” Wanting to expand in audience, Switchfoot decided to sign with Columbia Records. With their debut mainstream album, The Beautiful Letdown, they reached a bigger and broader mainstream audience. This disappointed the Christian fans who thought that Switchfoot was no longer “singing for the Lord.” Switchfoot defended, “For us, it [Christianity] is a faith not a genre. We’ve always been very open and honest about where the songs are coming from. For us, these songs are for everyone. Calling us ‘Christian rock’ tends to be a box that closes some people out and excludes them. And that’s not what we’re trying to do. Music has always opened my mind and that’s what we want.” This issue went on for awhile and caused a big commotion. Currently, the fans seem to understand this view but there are still a few who continue to judge Switchfoot about this issue. However Switchfoot does not prohibit Sparrow Records from marketing their albums in Christian bookstores.

Secondly, we have P.O.D. This San Diego rock band started as a jamming session between long life friends Marcos Curiel and Wuv Bernardo in the early 90’s. Sonny Sandoval was added to the band after his conversion to Christianity because of his mother’s death. His mother was a devout Christian. Traa and Daniels joined the band in 1994. Thus P.O.D was formed. P.O.D stands for Payable On Death, which the guys state is an acronym representing the crucifixion of Jesus. They were signed to a Christian record label called Rescue Records. They, after several changes in Christian record labels, became one of the most popular rock bands in the Christian music industry. After awhile they decided to go mainstream and had many incidents that left a sense of doubt for their Christian fans. Their Christians fans started to doubt their “Christianity” and consequently accused them of being devil worshippers. P.O.D defends that they approach the theme of Evangelism in their music and that just because they are Christians does not mean that they have to be obvious about Christianity in their music, thus shunning the label “Christian band.”

Another example is the band from New Orleans, MuteMath. The band was founded in 2003 and started as an exchange of demos and ideas between Paul Meany (vocalist) and Darren King (drummer). These two guys kept exchanging ideas and talked about a possible project which we know to be MuteMath. Later, guitarist Greg Hill and bassist Roy Mitchell-Cárdenas were added to the band. They headed to the studio and started creating the new wave electro “indie” sound that is MuteMath. Paul then showed some of their demos to long time friend and producer, Tedd T. Tedd immediately fell in love with this new sound and together with Paul founded the independent record label Telemprompt Records. Telemprompt then made a contract with Warner Brothers. Warner Bros. however did not appreciate their sound and the way they did things and subsequently refused to market their albums. Thus, MuteMath was forced to sell their albums in concerts. After this issue was over, Warner Bros. agreed to start marketing their albums. However, they violated their contract and started marketing MuteMath as a “Christian band.” MuteMath, outraged, sued the company for “negligent misrepresentation for marketing music to the Christian market.” Although MuteMath does not deny their faith in Jesus, they did not want their music marketed in the Christian market yet. They claimed that they wanted mainstream recognition first.

With so much changing in the music scene, will Christian music become extinct?

(FINALLY I HAD THE PATIENCE TO EDIT IT! hehe...)

Monday, January 15, 2007

Augustine of Hippo (History Project)

I am so proud of my project (I got an A+!) that I want to share it with the world! Here goes:

“Mankind is divided into two sorts: such as live according to man, and such as live according to God. These we call the two cities…The Heavenly City outshines Rome. There, instead of victory is truth.”

After the conversion of Constantine, the church was finally growing in the vast empire of Rome. Throughout each city and town, people were turning to Christ for their salvation. It was a glorious time after years of persecution. However not everyone favored Christianity. In fact, there was one man who wanted nothing to do with this faith. He was soon to find out that with this faith he would reach the hearts of many. This is the story of Aurelius Augustine.
Various people today have been inspired by this man’s story. Including Switchfoot’s front man Jon Foreman who in a song expressed his version of what was going on in Augustine’s mind:

Augustine just woke up with a broken heart
All this time he's never been awake before
At 31 his whole world is a question mark
All this time he's never been awake before
Watching dreams that he once had
Feed the flame inside his head
In a quiet desperation of the emptiness
He says:
There’s got to be something more
Than what I'm living for
I'm crying out to you ……

Do we really know what was going on in Augustine’s mind? Most of us don’t. But we should never hesitate to tell the story of this man.

Augustine was born in Tagaste, a city located in Northern Africa, in 354 AD. His mother, Monica, was a devout Christian. However his father was a pagan. Augustine never had an interest in the faith of his mother; on the contrary he was more interested in following his father’s ways. As a teenager, Augustine had an active sex life, and spent most of his time disturbing other people’s property, cheating, and stealing. When he turned 17, he decided to go to Carthage for his higher studies. During this period, various emperors were ruling different parts of the empire. The last emperor to rule all of Rome, which was about Augustine’s time, was Valentino I. Christianity was being tolerated at the time, but it was something that Augustine himself did not tolerate. That is why he was inspired by the teachings of Cicero and Manichaean philosophers. He kept this from his mother who strongly opposed Manichaeism.[1] After college, Augustine decided to go back to his hometown Thagaste, to teach rhetoric and Manichaeism. It wasn’t long before Monica found out about the profession he chose. Out of rage, she threw him out of the house. However, Monica still had hope that her son would accept Jesus and become a Christian. Because of this, she followed her son to Carthage where he had moved to teach. She pleaded and begged her son to accept Christ. But Augustine refused to consider it. One day, Augustine was offered a professorship in Rome. His mother begged him not to go. Augustine reassured his mother that he would stay in Carthage and that she should go home and rest. As soon as his mother left for Thagaste, Augustine left for Rome.

A year passed and Augustine once again moved, this time to Milan, Italy. There he taught rhetoric and of course Manichaeism. There was a man in Milan that would teach every day at the cathedral. His name was Ambrose and the way that he taught impressed and amazed Augustine. Consequently, Augustine started attending the services. He then dropped Manichaeism and started teaching Neoplatonism.[2] Monica then, who had searched for him for over a year, found him and was determined to find him a wife. Augustine had fallen in love with a concubine, who had given him a son, but he refused to get married because of social and political position. Because he had to forsake his lover and son, and the sudden change in philosophies, Augustine became troubled and struggled for a long time. He sought after letting go of his earthly pleasure but as he later stated in Confessions, “Our real pleasure consisted in doing something that was forbidden. The evil in me was foul, but I loved it.”

One day he felt extremely overwhelmed by these things and so decided to take a walk in his garden. As he was walking he claimed to hear a child like voice saying, “Take up and read.” Startled by this, he went inside and on top of the table laid Paul’s epistles that he had been reading. He picked them up and read the first thing that he saw. Not in reveling and drunkenness, not in lust and wantonness not in quarrels or rivalries. Rather, arm yourselves with the Lord Jesus Christ; spend no more thought on nature and nature’s appetites.”- Romans 13:13-14

Later he wrote that all shadow of doubt that he had was gone at that moment. He immediately accepted Christ as Savior. This caused quite a polemic in his life. He resigned his professorship, sent a letter to Ambrose and left with his friends and mother for a villa in Cassiciacum. He continued discussion philosophy and speaking against Neoplatonist views.

After 6 months, he returned and was baptized by Ambrose. After he got baptized he headed for Thagaste to become a writer and a thinker. During these set of trips, his mother, lover, son, and one of his closest friends passed away. Due to the grief and pain that came with his losses he became stronger in the Lord and committed to go deeper in God’s Word. He then gathered his friends and started a small group in Thagaste committed to prayer and bible studies.

In 391 AD, Augustine moved to Hippo to start a monastery. On one Sunday while he was at a service at a monastery, whose bishop was Bishop Valerius, Valerius set aside his original sermon and emphasized on the need of priests in the monastery. The entire congregation encouraged Augustine to apply for the position. Against his will Augustine became a priest. He was very upset because his wish was to become a bishop not a priest. Many encouraged him and told him that good things come for those who wait. Since Augustine spoke the local language, Punic, he assigned Augustine with various tasks. Five years after Valerius died, Augustine became the bishop of Hippo.

Augustine released a series of thirteen books that compose what we now know as The Confessions of St. Augustine. This autobiography talks about Augustine’s early life and his thoughts about God and man. Another great book came about when Augustine was confronted with the accusations that Christianity was causing the wars in Rome at that time and that people should turn back to the Roman Gods. Augustine’s response was City of God. He said that the reason Rome was being attacked or punished was not because of new faith but for their past sins. Augustine’s life long struggle with sin and the final release from it gave birth to a great man and his great works. Augustine continued discussion topics and debating against them. One of them was Pelagianism. Pelagius, a British monk, taught that there was no original sin and that man’s tendency to sin is his own choice. Thus not needing any divine grace, individuals must make up their mind to the will of God. Pelagius was excommunicated but the theory was carried on by young Julian of Eclanum. Julian would continuously make personal remarks against Augustine and his friends. Augustine debated with him for the last 10 years of his life. In 429, Northern Africa was attacked by the Vandals. The city of Hippo, one of the few fortified cities, became overwhelmed with refugees. By the third month of siege, Augustine of Hippo, a 76 year old man, died of a fever. Thankfully his works and teachings survived and are the basis of many churches today.

In Augustine we see the perfect example of the words, “I once was lost, but now I’m found.” From a life of utter sin, he accepted the sacrifice of Christ, thus becoming one of the most influential church fathers. Augustine will never be forgotten.

[1] A belief that is based on the teachings of Manes, who combined Christianity with the concept of dualism. Manichaeism states that the world came about as a mixture of light and darkness which represents good and evil. One’s soul, which originated from the Kingdom of Light, wants to escape the body, which represents the Kingdom of darkness. Manicheans believe that the soul can attain such freedom through wisdom, not renunciation of material or sensual things. (Sinful life)
[2] Dominant teaching of philosophy based of Plato’s theory of forms which states that “all things owe their identities to unchanging forms in which they share. Our knowledge comes from recognizing the essential form of a thing, rather than from observing its incidental qualities.

Hope you liked it! Comment if youd like!
Peace
Guimel Sibingo

Monday, January 8, 2007

First Day Of School...after Xmas break...

Just like any other boring day.....
I was excited for 10 minutes then the reas of the day drifted by with no excitment.

Im tired of living in this boredom. I really feel like leaving Portugal and go somewhere where I belong.

Im just so tired of this life right now. Hopefully God will do something sometime.

Peace Out

Wednesday, January 3, 2007

My Hillsong United Experience....

A lot of you saw me be excited about this one thing...Hillsong United coming to Portugal! So Im going to try to tell you how it all went in simple words or maybe not so simple. Anyways,

Summer of 2006 had been pretty good but it was about to get better. We were at a conference for teens and I was looking around the stuff that they were selling. As I was passing several booths, one caught my attention. A poster talking about the conference Mais Que Musica 2006 saying that Hillsong United was going to come. Boy was I excited! I talked to the guy he gave me some information and a week later I already had a ticket!

After a few weeks my mom came with the news that she had signed us up with the choir that was going to sing during the entire conference! I was SUPER excited because I would be singing on the same stage as them! So, I went to the practices, learned the songs, met very cool people and was super excited about everything!

On October 19, 2006 we had arrived early because the choir was going to do a soundcheck. We each were given special bracelets to go in while the other people had to wait till it begun. It felt so good! So the first night was a blessing. We sang some songs and pastor Gary Clark from Hillsong London gave a wonderful message. I saw some of my friends there and it was just amazing.

What was more amazing was the second night. Because the second night was when the Hillsong United concert took place. We got there early and stood right next to the door so that when people told us to make a line we would go in first. I saw some of my old friends there and we all stood in an incredibly LONG line. It blew me away at how long it was. We were singing and really bored and wanted to go in. After a long wait, we finally got it and the place was quickly getting packed with people so we had to find seats fast. But we really didnt need to because later on in the concert people got really close to the stage and stood during the entire concert. It was an amazing worship experience and a dream come true for me. It was amazing to sing the songs that I had listened to so much in the car or at home but this time LIVE!

After the concert, I was soooo sweaty! We bought the United t-shirts that the guys brought from Australia, they were sold out in almost 3 hours!

On the third day it was the day for the seminaries. I went to the Praise&Worship seminary with the United guys. I learned a lot about songwriting and worship teams and had fun with friends. The guys were always being overcrowded by people on breaks so I only got bried conversations with some. But I got to talk a lot to the drummer which was awesome for me.

That night was the CCC concert (the church hosting the conference) along with Hillsong United. Us, the choir were ready and I had so much fun onstage! When Hillsong United came, I was so happy! It was the best worship experience and I felt very honored to be on the same stage with such great Christian music moguls. I loved it.

The next day, the guys went to play at CCC. Thats where I got to talk to Joel Houston. I got the poster that I had made signed and Joel and I had a good talk. It was an honor to meet the people that I so admire. Their character and their lives have been a great inspiration for my life.

It was an amazing experience that I will never forget. I had been praying for this for two years and it was a dream come true. I have been a huge Hillsong fan since I was 9 and it was the greatest experience ever!

Hopefully I will be able to write more when I get to see Switchfoot some time in my life! But for now this is all I have!

If you want to see pictures you can go to http://s24.photobucket.com/albums/c2/independent_girl/Hillsong%20United/

Thank you for all of those who have prayed for me!
God Bless!
Guimel

Monday, January 1, 2007

The Art

The Art
This is all so beautiful
But how much of this will really be
Enough to keep me on my feet
This is how it feels, when it's for real
But how much can be invisible
Enough for me to just believe
And I'm chasing the wind
And ending up right where I began
I know that there's an art to starting over again
Knowing God will never waste the pain
You can only try so hard, to right a wrong
This song will only last so long
Life takes time, so let it live alone
I may never know why, I should just let it go
But do I really want a God that I can understand
Still I close my eyes, try to reason why
But since when do my desires, dominate the plan
And I'm chasing the wind
And ending up right where we begin
I know that there's an art to starting over again
Knowing God will never waste the pain
You can only try so hard, to right a wrong
This song will only last so long
Life is just the art of living on
And life is in slow motion
And when the silence is deafening
Hold on tight, you're gonna cry
There's always a reason why
I know that there's an art to starting over again
And I know that God will never waste my pain
You can only try so hard, to walk alone
This song will only last so long
Life is just the art of living on
It comes down to the art of living on
song performed by Rachel Lampa
As it was portrayed on my last post, I was really upset on New Year. And that pretty much made me feel like the next 364 days would be even worse. I had a really negative attitude towards 2007. And that certainly didnt make things any better. However this song, performed by Rachel Lampa has helped me a lot. Rachel Lampa is a Christian music artist and some of you dont really enjoy Christian music but she really is one of a kind with a beautiful voice and beautiful songs.
So this serves as a lesson for me and for everyone else. When life seems to bring you down, remember there is a good purpose for everything.
Peace
Guimel

Not Everything Is As We Want It To Be....

The first few minutes of 2007.....

I really wanted them to feel good and festive...but no, all I felt was a sudden sadness because my mother and my sister were fighting again. As I heard their heated conversation I started to wonder wether I should have been born or not...

On a day as important as this one, things feel monotonous and very sad. Not only because of a simple fight but because my entire world could crumble down in days if this continues.

Unfortunately I cannot share much on a blog because its pretty public, but if you are out there and you feel like praying for a hopeless 14-year-old, go ahead, I would appreciate it.

Happy 07.